My Deranged thoughts
Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
"A GIRLS NIGHT OUT"
Ok so last night as hard as I tryed to stay in I couldn't. A night out was way over due for me. So I go on craigslist in the T4M section. Because thats the only way I know how to get a hold of my "Crying Game" friend... So I find her on there and call her up and bring her to my hotel.
We haven't even hit the room yet and she's getting ambushed by 15 year olds with hard ons, carring La Cross sticks following her around. It took everything out of me not to tell them that the hot brunette they where chasing probably has a bigger package then they do.
So we make a fast escape to my room to plan ahead for our saturday night escapades. When we get inside she turns to me and says: "My pussy was getting so wet" I looked at her slack jawed like WTF... and I said: "Bitch... What pussy"??
She looked at me all innocently and replied: "My snatch in the back"
Trust me there's a few more details to this but I'ma leave them out for now to save you from the graphic nature of the image.
So we come up with a plan to hit the road.
Destination: Falls View Casino!!!
We throw all our shit in my whip and hit the road. The ride was kinda dry. My narcoliptic trani passenger passes out mid sentence describing the size of oil workers cocks in Edmonton, Alberta. So she finally comes to at Lundy's Lane and apologizes for passing out. Her defence was: She had just started a new harmone rejiment. But that's a whole different story and we still have to make a pit stop for RED BULL and to top up my power steering fluid.
My 02 PasSat is much like my trani passenger. Beautiful outer shell but all mixed up, confused and going hay wire on the inside. Its navy blue sitting on 18 inch Axis Hagen's. But I have to fill this thing up with power steering fluid every adventure. We finally get to the casino but I'm held hostage in the underground by the trani and her make-up bag.
So we're making our way through the Falls View Casino to hit the slots and already I feel the sexual glances from all the adoring fans. I'm the bitch wing women to the permiscouse trani buddy... Tonights gonna be a good night. (Black eye pea's song playing in my head)
We get into the casino and we're scooping out the best place to park it where we our beautyand poise can be readly enjoyed, like 2 Fareri's in a show room. Just as we're settling in 2 Italian studs with accents straight out of Naples approach us. They where smooth like they had done this befor.
They invited us out for smokes. I must admit I was tempted by they're continetal swagger but completely turned off by they're lame atempt. Like really your offering me cigarette... Not even a glass of white wine or a Bud Light Lime??? Cheap Bastered's!!
Not to mention I had just thrown 20 in the penny slots. I had 2000 plays and a couple Heinekens ahead of me. So we turned them down, as we knew there was much more men meat to devour that night. So we get our drinks and I turn my focus completely over to my slot machine.
It was a good call for me cause I go on this winning streak. I had just won like 180 bucks and 20 free spins. My machaine starts producing musical melodies as Im rolling in my winnings. I didn't even notice that my trani buddy had taken off on her own little exscapades.
So I cash out of that machine and move on to the next. As I know my Trani girlfriend will soon re-appear. I continue on my winning streak with my new machine and I'm approached by this 5'5 caucasian college kid, who's mom probably dressed him. I'm sure this kid has has one to many and is feeling quite bold. He try's to make a move on me and after I've turned him down atleast 3 times he moves on to this mother daughter duo passing by.
The daughter was like 27 and the mom was like 53. Instead of hitting on the duaghter this kid starts hitting on the mom. I try to concentrate on my slots when I over hear they're conversation. The mom asked the kid what he dose for fun and his reply was: "I can't tell you I have to show you" I burst out laughing and turn to him and say: "Did you really just say that to her" The mother daughter duo start laughing too. The kid turns to me so seriously and says "Stop cock blocking... You jealous now that I moved on"
Before I could even get out a smart ass reply my trani friends reappers with a shot, 2 drinks and a devilshly handsome new man friend. She introduces us then takes me aside
2 be continued... To tired to type anymore. Still recoperating from last night. I'll finush blogging tomorrow, Nite Nite world. Mwah
Friday, July 2, 2010
Dreams come they go but I always come back to this one
Don't know how Ima obtain it but I know Ima make it
Rock show's from Toronto to Vegas Don't care if you believe me
Just sit and watch me make it
I'm standing in the same spot
Watching everything move around me
Doing my grind aint about that 9 to 5
Only want them bright lights cause I know they mine
Get to the point where I can relax and be fine
Untill then Ima stay and do what I do
Take the steps to make my dreams come true
I want the GWOP, ATTENTION & FAME
The thought of being adverage is lame
Telling myself that Im through with all the pain
Cause vision of me being debt free
Looking sexy &stylsih, sick whips and trips
No more lay away to finally be able to do the things I say.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Dreams so far but so Close
Ok so since my last Blogg things have started to go better. I don't feel as down. I got back in touch with my old vocal coach and we put a plan into motion to help me get back on track. Extremly happy about that. I also started writing some music... I know that its gonna be a long process. My vocal coach always help me put things into perspective. I think Im the most honest when Im around her. I love how she believes in me.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
This is me... In a nutshell... No B.S!!!
Ok well I guess I should start by introducing myself to the world...
I go by Bailey Benz or Mz.Benzito. I'm a 23yr old ebony goddess. My hobbies are looking good and singing. My life long dream is to be in the entertainment industry, in the line's of singing, modeling or being an entertainment personality.
When I was younger I had all faith in myself to be whatever it is that I wanted to be but now Im in my early 20's and haven't gotten any closer to those bright lights.
I still have a of a beautiful voice but have picked up the disgusting habbit of smoking. I'm in the entertainment industry but a long ways from being a tv personal or vocalist...
I feel as though I got caught up!!!
I stay grindin to make money to get by... To do things like by clothes, make-up, a vehical, singing lesson's. (which I still haven't gotten around to taking I might add.) Photo shoot's. (to build my portfolio and hopefully get the exsposure I want and need.)
I really want to acheive ME!!!
I'm sick of my life style!!!
I'm tired of crying and breaking down.
I'm tired of starting over and then going right back to how things where befor.
I'm tired of feeling used or feeling as though my voice isn't being head.
I'm tired of lieing to friends and family but even more importantly myself!!!
I feel as though I give and give and give but forget to give to myself.
My soul feels broken and brusied!
No matter how fresh my gear is, how fly my hair is, how sick my whip (car) is I still feel crumy or unfullfilled. I really want to Grab my destiny atleast feel as though it is within my grasp.
Mz.Benzito
I go by Bailey Benz or Mz.Benzito. I'm a 23yr old ebony goddess. My hobbies are looking good and singing. My life long dream is to be in the entertainment industry, in the line's of singing, modeling or being an entertainment personality.
When I was younger I had all faith in myself to be whatever it is that I wanted to be but now Im in my early 20's and haven't gotten any closer to those bright lights.
I still have a of a beautiful voice but have picked up the disgusting habbit of smoking. I'm in the entertainment industry but a long ways from being a tv personal or vocalist...
I feel as though I got caught up!!!
I stay grindin to make money to get by... To do things like by clothes, make-up, a vehical, singing lesson's. (which I still haven't gotten around to taking I might add.) Photo shoot's. (to build my portfolio and hopefully get the exsposure I want and need.)
I really want to acheive ME!!!
I'm sick of my life style!!!
I'm tired of crying and breaking down.
I'm tired of starting over and then going right back to how things where befor.
I'm tired of feeling used or feeling as though my voice isn't being head.
I'm tired of lieing to friends and family but even more importantly myself!!!
I feel as though I give and give and give but forget to give to myself.
My soul feels broken and brusied!
No matter how fresh my gear is, how fly my hair is, how sick my whip (car) is I still feel crumy or unfullfilled. I really want to Grab my destiny atleast feel as though it is within my grasp.
Mz.Benzito
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